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Wasted

The soldiers in Vietnam used an expression "wasted" instead of dead.
I found this episode in a book written about the war.
I don't really remember the author's name, maybe Tim O'brien...
The title of the book seems "Things they carried"
I do recommend to read it.
That book meets with my personal obssesion about the war somehow.

I am not dead at all, but sometimes feel I am just wasting my life.
What am I doing here in Czech?
Is this really what I wanted to do?
The answer is "No " of course.

I am not pessimistic at all.
I am just sort of feeling that I do wrong thing.
I am relativley very lucky comparing with many unluckies.
I even trust everything is going to be okay in the end.
But even so it is true that I felt uncomfortable at this moment.
Well maybe uncomfortable is not a right word. I just can't come up with better one.

If this makes you worried I will apologise.
That's not what I meant to do.
I think I just wanted to collect my thoughts by writing this.
Was it succesful? I don't know, but I feel better now.

Hmm, what a waste is this time!
I've spent about 30 mins for this shitty writing.
I could've done more productive things even in the midnight in Prague.
Well, I'd better sleep now.

By the way, I feel good because I can still write this in English.
Even though it is shitty, lol.
[PR]
by nat629 | 2007-07-11 07:59 | 文章のみ